I’m facing one of the hardest crossroads in my life.

Should I follow my love for adventurism, venture into something really alien to me, and somehow, someway achieve self-realization?

Or should I follow what my parents want, adhere to the family tradition, and just be the obedient daughter that I am?

Either road I choose, I know, deep in me, I’d feel incomplete happiness.

If I will choose the unknown path, I would be forever haunted by the fact that I broke my parents’ trust. If i will choose the straight path, i will never have peace of mind because of a thousand “what ifs.”

How should somebody get out from a no-win situation?

I got until next week to decide. Time is ticking. I’m running out of options:(

Whatever decision I would come up with, I have to deal with it forever.

I’m on my own now.
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Well, obviously I survived this crossroad. For the benefit of those who are asking, I chose the straight path. Thanks to the Big Man up there and the flood of prayers from people who care, I didn’t feel any sadness about my decision. No regrets whatsoever. I have come to realize that my parents’ trust comes first before adventurism.

It was about a sorority invitation. I’m glad that they understand my decision. They are a good organization. Their projects can attest to that. But I’m just not fit for a lifetime commitment. And well, I was born an obedient daughter;) Violent reactions? Hehe.